Lately, I've been having "Dreams for Dummies." That is, any important lessons/meanings/decisions in my dreams have been made with absolute minimal use of symbolism. In fact, characters are directly facing me and straight up saying things like, "Hey, you know how you are tired this week? Instead of fighting it, why don't you just go to bed earlier and sleep extra long?" Notice the complete lack of fuzzy confusion about what I should take from this sort of dream?
This morning, my dream involved me and Stan (a very old pal) sitting in the woods talking about what I want to do with my life. As I've had this conversation at least eighteen thousand times in real life, I wasn't surprised to have it again. (I have the motivation of a helium balloon on its third day of helium use...bobbing about with the breeze, resting on the lawn for a bit before wandering off somewhere.)
So. His suggestion was clever and surprising and I'll be thinking about it this weekend. My reply (in my dream) was "Hmm. I'm always surprised by what I like." Then I woke up and thought about that. And I realized that OF COURSE you should be surprised by what you like! Liking things involves more than just your brain. Your body needs to like it, too. Like ice cream...it's not purely a mental enjoyment. Ideally your emotions would approve as well. Since this is the first time I'm living in this magnificently clumsy body, I have no idea what things will trigger the likings of it. Emotions are sometimes easier to guess, because I think that emotions are the fuzzy line where brain meets body, so both have input.
As I came to this conclusion, I rolled over and fell back asleep thinking about how this would maybe be blog material...later. Stan was there in the woods again and said "Huh. How much Beethoven would we know if he never got off his ass and wrote down what was in his head? Wake up." Stupid non-symbolic dreams.
An Erinku:
rusted school bus
in woods
pine trees
grow through
Friday, August 28, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
Dirty Secrets
There are times in life when you realize that you just can't take any more. It doesn't matter what people will think of you or how they will react. I finally got to that point tonight when, on the drive home from the local tavern, it happened again: the Red Hot Chili Peppers came on the radio. My big, dark, dirty secret is that I think the Red Hot Chili Peppers are:
1) played WAY too much on the radio and
2) are just a tiny little bit overrated (don't hit me!)
I usually grunt and change the radio station. However. The Red Hot Chili Peppers were also playing on my "secondary" radio station. I grunted (a bit louder this time, to honor my caveperson ancestors) and switched to the tertiary (third) radio station. "Under the Bridge" was playing there. Alas. Thank god I had a short drive home. I really wouldn't be surprised to hear them on my fourth-tier radio station. Or to hear a classical cover of one of their songs done by a symphony (she wrote with a shudder). I am now counteracting this by listening to AC/DC on iTunes. Technology, while super amazing creepy at times, is AWESOME! You shook me aaaaaaaaaall niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight long!!!!
Moral of today's story: there is a way, somehow...I will learn soon, how to hide that little bar at the bottom of your computer screen. Technology is creepy. For those about to rock, we salute you!
An Erinku:
computer on floor
a desk
I'll buy
tomorrow.
1) played WAY too much on the radio and
2) are just a tiny little bit overrated (don't hit me!)
I usually grunt and change the radio station. However. The Red Hot Chili Peppers were also playing on my "secondary" radio station. I grunted (a bit louder this time, to honor my caveperson ancestors) and switched to the tertiary (third) radio station. "Under the Bridge" was playing there. Alas. Thank god I had a short drive home. I really wouldn't be surprised to hear them on my fourth-tier radio station. Or to hear a classical cover of one of their songs done by a symphony (she wrote with a shudder). I am now counteracting this by listening to AC/DC on iTunes. Technology, while super amazing creepy at times, is AWESOME! You shook me aaaaaaaaaall niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight long!!!!
Moral of today's story: there is a way, somehow...I will learn soon, how to hide that little bar at the bottom of your computer screen. Technology is creepy. For those about to rock, we salute you!
An Erinku:
computer on floor
a desk
I'll buy
tomorrow.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Answers from a 31 Year Old.
1. What bill do you hate paying the most? Stupid, stupid phone bills. There's the land line. There's long distance. There's the cell phone. Blah. I've tried repeatedly to get them to just send one bill...but no!
2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner? It was evening, it came from a can, meowing was involved. Wait. That was Dylan's last romantic dinner: last night was chopped meat from a can night.
3. What do you really want to be doing right now? Not to sound like a total junkie, but practicing cello across the street at the music building!!
4. How many colleges did you attend? 1.2.3.4.5..I'm in my fifth one right now working on my second master's degree. Again with sounding like a junkie...
5. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now? Because I dress in Business-Sarcastic-Casual. All business casual on top with snarky shirts underneath.
6. First thought when the alarm went off this morning? NOOOOOOOOO!!! SNOOZE BUTTON!!!
7. Last thought before going to sleep last night? I was being read the dairy order for the next few weeks by Chris and I think my last words were "sharp cheddar..."
8. Do you miss being a child? Hmm. Yes and no. I still tip over farily easily (like a child) but I have a larger vocabulary (like a not-child).
9. What errand/chore do you despise? Laundry. That's a guy's job.
10. Get up early or sleep in? SLEEP IN!!!!
11. Have you found real love yet? Yes: it was evening, it came from a can, meowing was involved. Dammit. I seem to be channeling the cat today!
12. Favorite lunch meat? Hmm. I'm swinging back over to the vegetarian camp lately. I'm digging feta cheese on salads with dried cranberries. Alas. None of that is meat.
13. What do you get every time you go into Wal-Mart? HAHAHAHA! I've boycotted Walmart for about eight years now. I do, however, boo loudly whenever I go by one. I recently was at a festival and saw their little marketing folk riding around on segways asking passers-by "Why do YOU love Walmart?!" I yelled out, as I passed, about fair trade and human rights, which both pleased and highly embarrassed my companion at the time.
14. What famous person would you like to have dinner with? Orlando Bloom. He is one hot elf.
15. Have you ever crashed your vehicle? Yes. Stupid islands in the middle of the road jumping out in front of me.
16. Ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose? Not me, but I've been around when others have used them. As I'm absolutely no use in an emergency, I think I'm fine going through life not being called on to actually use one.
17. Ring tone? Something that came with the phone. Wow. This question just really bored me.
18. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth? In a little bathroom with two roommates brushing at the same time. We all looked at each other in the mirror and started laughing because it's wierd to be crammed together all brushing at the same tempo.
19. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go? LA. I know people who live there. I hear Orlando Bloom is a hot elf and he probably lives there, too.
20. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship? Umm. Hmm. I'm starting music school in five weeks (eeek!!!). I suspect that counts as a career change? Maybe?
21. How old are you? 31.416
22. Do you have a go-to person? I have a go-to triad. I've done this for many years, though the members of the triad change over time with moves and life adventures.
23. Are you where you want to be in life? Depends on my interpretation of the day. Living in the Hobbit Hole (a garage), starting music school (where I'm getting my butt kicked), driving a green car (instead of the bus more often), and drinking coffee (that is sometimes crappy) can either be positive or paranthetical, depending.
24. Growing up, what were your favorite cartoons? Oh my. I still watch Saturday morning cartoons. It's a soothing way to drink coffee instead of watching the news and getting all stressy. I don't remember too many from growing up, but there were Gummy Bears (?), Duck Tales, Animaniacs, Smurfs, Thundercats, She-Ra, Rainbow Bright (am I making this up?), Jem?, the Flintstones (which is a HIGHLY sexist show when you watch it with grown-up eyeballs), and onward. These are dredged up from the murky back-waters of memory.
25. What about you do you think has changed the most? Um. Hmm. I'm about 1000% better at standing up for myself. My improved vocabulary might having something to do with that. I'm much more likely to tell someone off when I don't have to use only G-rated language.
26. Looking back at high school were they the best years of your life? Yeah, not so much. College was better. Grad school #1 was better. We'll see what grad school #2 is like.
27. Are there times you still feel like a kid? Yeah. I still laugh at dumb jokes (Q: what is brown and sticky? A: a stick!!!)
28. Where was the hang out spot when you were a teenager? Cars. Preferably zooming about town looking for adventures.
29. Were you the type of kid you would want your children to hang out with? I've been accused multiple times over the years that I'm a bad influence. So yes. Yes.
30. Who do you think impacted your life the most? Bobby McFerrin. Hmm. As that is completely random and untrue, I suspect I am still channelling Dylan.
31. Do you tell stories that start with “when I was your age”? No, but I read one that said "To the next generation: when I was your age, if I wanted to steal music, I had to get off my ass and go down to the cd store!" It was BRILLIANT!
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An Erinku:
green list of
to-doings
I'm not doing
I'm not doing
2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner? It was evening, it came from a can, meowing was involved. Wait. That was Dylan's last romantic dinner: last night was chopped meat from a can night.
3. What do you really want to be doing right now? Not to sound like a total junkie, but practicing cello across the street at the music building!!
4. How many colleges did you attend? 1.2.3.4.5..I'm in my fifth one right now working on my second master's degree. Again with sounding like a junkie...
5. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now? Because I dress in Business-Sarcastic-Casual. All business casual on top with snarky shirts underneath.
6. First thought when the alarm went off this morning? NOOOOOOOOO!!! SNOOZE BUTTON!!!
7. Last thought before going to sleep last night? I was being read the dairy order for the next few weeks by Chris and I think my last words were "sharp cheddar..."
8. Do you miss being a child? Hmm. Yes and no. I still tip over farily easily (like a child) but I have a larger vocabulary (like a not-child).
9. What errand/chore do you despise? Laundry. That's a guy's job.
10. Get up early or sleep in? SLEEP IN!!!!
11. Have you found real love yet? Yes: it was evening, it came from a can, meowing was involved. Dammit. I seem to be channeling the cat today!
12. Favorite lunch meat? Hmm. I'm swinging back over to the vegetarian camp lately. I'm digging feta cheese on salads with dried cranberries. Alas. None of that is meat.
13. What do you get every time you go into Wal-Mart? HAHAHAHA! I've boycotted Walmart for about eight years now. I do, however, boo loudly whenever I go by one. I recently was at a festival and saw their little marketing folk riding around on segways asking passers-by "Why do YOU love Walmart?!" I yelled out, as I passed, about fair trade and human rights, which both pleased and highly embarrassed my companion at the time.
14. What famous person would you like to have dinner with? Orlando Bloom. He is one hot elf.
15. Have you ever crashed your vehicle? Yes. Stupid islands in the middle of the road jumping out in front of me.
16. Ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose? Not me, but I've been around when others have used them. As I'm absolutely no use in an emergency, I think I'm fine going through life not being called on to actually use one.
17. Ring tone? Something that came with the phone. Wow. This question just really bored me.
18. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth? In a little bathroom with two roommates brushing at the same time. We all looked at each other in the mirror and started laughing because it's wierd to be crammed together all brushing at the same tempo.
19. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go? LA. I know people who live there. I hear Orlando Bloom is a hot elf and he probably lives there, too.
20. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship? Umm. Hmm. I'm starting music school in five weeks (eeek!!!). I suspect that counts as a career change? Maybe?
21. How old are you? 31.416
22. Do you have a go-to person? I have a go-to triad. I've done this for many years, though the members of the triad change over time with moves and life adventures.
23. Are you where you want to be in life? Depends on my interpretation of the day. Living in the Hobbit Hole (a garage), starting music school (where I'm getting my butt kicked), driving a green car (instead of the bus more often), and drinking coffee (that is sometimes crappy) can either be positive or paranthetical, depending.
24. Growing up, what were your favorite cartoons? Oh my. I still watch Saturday morning cartoons. It's a soothing way to drink coffee instead of watching the news and getting all stressy. I don't remember too many from growing up, but there were Gummy Bears (?), Duck Tales, Animaniacs, Smurfs, Thundercats, She-Ra, Rainbow Bright (am I making this up?), Jem?, the Flintstones (which is a HIGHLY sexist show when you watch it with grown-up eyeballs), and onward. These are dredged up from the murky back-waters of memory.
25. What about you do you think has changed the most? Um. Hmm. I'm about 1000% better at standing up for myself. My improved vocabulary might having something to do with that. I'm much more likely to tell someone off when I don't have to use only G-rated language.
26. Looking back at high school were they the best years of your life? Yeah, not so much. College was better. Grad school #1 was better. We'll see what grad school #2 is like.
27. Are there times you still feel like a kid? Yeah. I still laugh at dumb jokes (Q: what is brown and sticky? A: a stick!!!)
28. Where was the hang out spot when you were a teenager? Cars. Preferably zooming about town looking for adventures.
29. Were you the type of kid you would want your children to hang out with? I've been accused multiple times over the years that I'm a bad influence. So yes. Yes.
30. Who do you think impacted your life the most? Bobby McFerrin. Hmm. As that is completely random and untrue, I suspect I am still channelling Dylan.
31. Do you tell stories that start with “when I was your age”? No, but I read one that said "To the next generation: when I was your age, if I wanted to steal music, I had to get off my ass and go down to the cd store!" It was BRILLIANT!
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An Erinku:
green list of
to-doings
I'm not doing
I'm not doing
Monday, August 10, 2009
Monday
This morning, as I poured my creamer into my coffee, I took the time to enjoy the swirls it made. I have had several people look at me today, hesitate, and say I look tired. I suspect I must look like something else, but politeness dictates that “tired” is socially acceptable. There are many things that probably would be more correct, but I just replied that I’d had a very long weekend and that coffee should straighten it all out. My story today (and for the last few months, actually) isn’t very interesting. But cream does make beautiful swirls in a big cup of hot coffee. Today the sun is shining and the clouds make beautiful swirls in a big summer sky.
An Erinku:
maps
unfolded
await
my folding free time
An Erinku:
maps
unfolded
await
my folding free time
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Strangers
The other day, as I was going into the grocery store, a stranger stopped me and demanded that I look at the sky. The sun was setting and the clouds were all manner of beautiful. We stood there for a minute together looking at it. Sometimes I’m glad to be bossed by strangers.
I was thinking about this as I walked this morning and how sometimes strangers are useful things. I have all manner of events coming up this weekend and the idea of just sitting down and watching the sky with a stranger sounds nice. I’m tired of having to re-evaluate my life every single day. I’m tired of re-hashing my life story over and over. I’m tired of being maudlin when I have a glass a wine: I act worse than a 15-year-old emo boy!
At this point in my maudlin, emo walk, my little earphones randomly decided I needed some upbeat bouncy songs. I’ve decided I’m taking Sunday off altogether to be a hermit who sits outside to watch clouds. No wine.
An Erinku:
tomato
on my desk
lopsided
yet tasty
I was thinking about this as I walked this morning and how sometimes strangers are useful things. I have all manner of events coming up this weekend and the idea of just sitting down and watching the sky with a stranger sounds nice. I’m tired of having to re-evaluate my life every single day. I’m tired of re-hashing my life story over and over. I’m tired of being maudlin when I have a glass a wine: I act worse than a 15-year-old emo boy!
At this point in my maudlin, emo walk, my little earphones randomly decided I needed some upbeat bouncy songs. I’ve decided I’m taking Sunday off altogether to be a hermit who sits outside to watch clouds. No wine.
An Erinku:
tomato
on my desk
lopsided
yet tasty
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Saturday Adventures
This morning, I went grocery shopping while cooking hashbrowns (the hashbrowns were on the stove on low and I was in the car trusting Chris and Dylan to watch things). On my way home, I frantically remembered that I'd forgotten _______ (I love MadLibs!!). So. I zipped around and went right back to my local grocery store. I zoomed out of my car, went directly to the ______ section, looked at the options, picked up a new version of _________, strode over to the self-check out and paid for my great big ______. I didn't need a bag and I realized that with my pre-shower toussled look, that my ardent mission for _______ was really pretty shocking, if one didn't know the back-story (that I'd forgotten it in the first place).
I'm enjoying a fairly chill Saturday despite my shopping adventures. And in spite of trying to break my right foot by dropping heavy tape decks on it. I'm covered in dust and need a beer. The end.
An Erinku:
variegated string
left behind
from kitty adventures
on monitor
I'm enjoying a fairly chill Saturday despite my shopping adventures. And in spite of trying to break my right foot by dropping heavy tape decks on it. I'm covered in dust and need a beer. The end.
An Erinku:
variegated string
left behind
from kitty adventures
on monitor
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