I swing between idealism and being practical. I tend to stay on the practical side of things, but having been there for a good four years or so, I find I'm heading in the other direction. In a way, idealism for me is a lot like spring cleaning. I wait until I can't bear it any more and then completely clean everything from cobweb to dust bunny. I've been told by several people that I'm a lot more interesting during my idealistic times as I make sweeping changes in most aspects of my life.
I was thinking about this during my evening walky today. I had an epiphany years ago that I've made every life decision based on fear. That was an upsetting observation. And while I walk around and have realizations, it doesn't mean I'm good at changing my habits. That's why I have walking epiphanies fairly routinely.
During my walk today, I realized that I am, again, being fear-based and in fact have been coerced into a situation I'm not happy with by someone who was actively using fear propaganda to make me submit. Grr. I'm also using big words and being abstract as a side effect of a glass of wine. Grr. I'm off to a concert tonight and as concerts are THE BEST places for me to meditate (it's bizarre and I can't help it) I'm hoping to have a more concrete plan of action for my upcoming swing. The dust bunnies have accumulated long enough.
An Erinku:
I'll never be
as short as my
shadow
at noon.
No comments:
Post a Comment